Saturday, January 31, 2009


C is back in my good graces today. damn, it is so easy! I can't help it I love him =) I met him for lunch today and afterwards I thought I would go to Wal-Mart to get some digital OPK's. They were pretty cheap there, I was very happy with my purchase. That is the ONLY reason I went there. I hate wal mart, cannot STAND that place. It is always filled with tons a nasty white-trash SLOW people. I mean slow in more than one way. To prove my point let me fill you in on my checkout experience.

The girl grabs my digital opk's and looks at it for what seemed like ever. This is what she said to me:

Check out girl: So you have a sick baby at home?

Me: Um, what? *with a wtf kind of ? is that look on my face*

Check out girl: Well you are buying a thermometer, I just thought you had a sick baby at home.

Me: Umm, no. That is not a thermometer. I grab my bag and high-tail it out of there.

I'm guessing she thought I had a sick baby at home because there was a picture of a baby on it!? I don't know. That just reaffirms why I don't shop there. Damn place and their low prices!

The only good part that came out of that is that I finally got a +++++OPK with a digital. No denying it! I thought I had a ++ the other day, but I didn't know for sure (it was the test with the lines). I decided to just go buy some digital ones so I don't have to work so hard to figure it out lol.
Woot!! Sorry the pic is kind of blurry, but I think you can see the smiley face! C is gettin' lucky tonight!! What is even better than that is his parents are taking us out to eat for his dinner, free drinks, AND fun when we get home! =)

Lazy... what I have been since Wednesday! I haven't been to the gym since Wednesday night with C. I have had the last 2 days off and what have I done? Sit on my ass. Boo. Yesterday I did manage to clean the entire house....only because C was an ass and decided to go out with his friends after work after telling me he would be home. He came home with his tail between his legs, so I think he knows whats up.

I would like to think our BD session Thurs. night counts as exercise. Of course it did, it was fantastic. ;-) Today I am going to do a little shopping and go see C at his new store.

Tomorrow it's back to work! At least I'll be up moving around for 12 hours instead of on my ass at home! Just trying to look on the bright side. =)

Monday, January 26, 2009

Working out is fun!

C & I have been going to the gym almost every night since we joined on the 15th. I have to say at first it was difficult, but it's getting a little easier everyday. He is really pushing me/encouraging me and keeping me going! At first I was just doing the elliptical machine for 30 minutes, but Saturday night I started doing strength training, too. Yesterday morning when I woke up, my legs hurt like hell!! But it's the good kind of hurt, no pain no gain (or loss!) Last night was probably the most difficult yet on the elliptical because my legs were so worn out from the night before. I did 15 minutes on that and then did strength training for my arms for about 30 minutes. C likes showing me how the machines work, so I just follow him around. =) He keeps telling me what I great job I'm doing, and that really helps!

So I got to work this morning and weighed myself. Ready for it??

I know it's not a lot, but I only started this on the 9th, so I feel pretty good with my 6.5 pound loss! To everyone that is working on getting healthy, keep it up!

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Left out.

That is how I have been feeling lately, just left out of everything. I miss my friends and family back in Indiana. It seems as if everyone has moved on and forgotten about me (I know they haven't, I'm just having a great pity party here!). My best friend back home just texted me that she is having a rough day. I hate that I can't be there to make her feel better. And I hate that she isn't here with me when I am having a bad day. I hope she can come visit soon!!

Enough of the pity party though....C and I have went to the gym the last two nights, woo hoo! I haven't died yet LOL =) Last night I did the elliptical machine for 30 minutes and it kicked my butt. I knew I was out of shape, but WOW. I know tonight is going to be even worse though, but I just have to get through it. I will lose weight this time!!

My weight loss for week 1 was -3lbs. YAY!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Keep it up!!

I know it's only been a few days since I started my "lifestyle change" but the first few days & weeks are the most difficult! I have been doing great sticking to healthier choices and keeping my calories under control. I am pretty proud of myself! C seems to be pretty proud of me too, which really makes me feel good! I think he knows I am serious this time about getting healthy. We were driving to Wal-Mart today to get my MP3 player (yay!) and I told him I just want to feel better but look better too when we go back home to Indiana in October. He told me I already look great and I don't need to change anything. I love my husband! I just want to get healthier!! I know I can do it!

So I am reading The Best Life Diet and it has taught me so much!! Things I should have known being a nurse and all, but I never really thought about! So there are phases to this life diet you have to go through. I am obviously in phase one which is supposed to last at least 4 weeks. The really hard part about phase one is not weight myself again for another 4 weeks! I am one of those crazy girls that likes to weight every other day LOL even though I know it isn't accurate. This is going to teach me about patience right? =)

I am so excited because C agreed that I needed an MP3 player to work out with! I can't do it without music, how boring! I didn't get a really expensive or fancy one, but I like it! It's pink! I have been busy putting all of my favorite music on it! Now if only I could figure out how to make a playlist lol. I am not the most technilogically savvy person. I may have to go get C to help me soon.

We are going to his parents house for dinner tonight. I am excited because his parents are AWESOME. I am truly blessed with great in-laws. They would (and have done) anything for us. They moved us across the country, pretty great huh? We haven't seen them in about 2 weeks which is a long time for us considering they only live a few miles away. Hopefully she is making something healthy! If not, it's all about portion control!

I hope everyone has a great week! I work Mon-Wed, my 3 12 hour shifts then I'm off for 3 days, YAY!

Friday, January 9, 2009

Weigh In!

We started our weight loss challenge at work today. It will run until July 5th. There were probably 15 people that joined! We each had to pay $25 to join the challenge...the exciting thing is that whoever loses the biggest percentage of weight loss at the end wins 90% of the pot! The 2nd place winner gets 10%. I told C I AM GOING TO WIN!!! I decided before this challenge that I was going to make a change and finally get this weight off FOR GOOD. This just gives me a LOT of extra incentive to want to lose the weight! We are joining a gym through work for an awesome price! We start on the 15th (they only start new members twice a month). So until then I am going to do exercise videos at home.

I am so proud of myself because I went to the grocery store after I weighed in and I did not succumb to any temptations!!! Everything I bought was healthy (a few things weren't, but they were for C:) I thought I was going to spend a TON of money, but I came out at only $110. Gotta love my Safeway Club Card! I am ready for this!! Time to go work out! =)

Good luck to all the girls in the GP weight loss challenge! You can do it!

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Time for a change!

It's been far too long since I have blogged. My birthday, Christmas, and New Year's have come and gone! I can't believe it is 2009 already! I remember worrying that the world was going to end in 2000....haha that seems like so long ago! I have never been one to make new year's resolutions, and I don't really know that this is a "New Year's Resolution".

So, I'll give you a little background into my life! I have been overweight my entire life. I do not remember ever NOT worrying about my weight or what size I was wearing. When I graduated highschool almost 6 years ago, I weighed around 205lbs. I stayed that way until I entered nursing school. Let me tell you that the amount of time you spend on your butt in class and studying, you eat A LOT! We would eat out lunch everyday. I gained about 40 pounds my final year of college! Needless to say, it was time for a change. Right before graduation, I made some HUGE changes in my life (breaking off an engagement, deciding it was time to lose weight). Over the course of the next year (from 2006-2007) I lost about 50lbs. I met my husband, and was engaged in June 2007. I maintained my weight with the use of prescription drugs which I wish I NEVER would have taken! After our wedding in March 2008 I decided I should stop taking the medication. Big surprise, I have gained about 30 pounds since then!!

There have been other major life changing events over the past year an a half. My dad passed away suddenly in October 2007. Then my husband and I moved across the country this past October. I left everyone and everything I have ever known!! The past few months I have just been eating more and more when I have nothing to do. I work 3 12 hour shifts a week which leaves me with 4 days off! I have to find something to fill my time!!

So anyway, this is turning out to be longer than I thought!! My mom came out to visit over New Year's and she looked AWESOME! My mom has struggled with her weight her entire life as well. Over the past 5 months or so she has started eating healthier and working out and I was so proud of her! It really inspired me to change my lifestyle. I HAVE to make a change. I do not want to get pregnant at the point I am right now and then gain even MORE weight...I would be miserable! I know my husband wants me to just be HEALTHY...he really doesn't care about the weight. I love him for that! He is the only person I have truly ever felt that loves me unconditionally. He is my inspiration to be a better ME. I want to be healthy for us, for our future children so that I can live for a LONG TIME!

So that leads me to my "resolution" to live a better life! I got the book "The Better Life Diet" and I love it. It rocked me to my core pretty much. It is the wake up call I need to change my life. I know that there is no quick fix anymore. I have to work hard to get where I want to be. Chris & I are joining a gym. I inspired my boss to sign up for a group rate at the local gym and we are doing a weight loss contest as well. It starts January 20 and goes to July 5th. Even more motivation!

So I will be brutally honest and put it ALL out there. I have to face my reality so that I can change it. I weighed myself today and the scale said 234. It is about time I make a change!!!

I also joined the GP 2.1 weight loss challenge! Good luck to everyone!